Should I?

as time goes by, i still haven't book my flight ticket to Sarawak. i told my grandparents that im not going back if i don't have enough cash to purchase it. papa promised to sponsor me the return ticket. but then, how i am suppose to explain it to my grandparents? for sure they'll scold me like hell! hurmm.. so how? should i keep it as a secret? don't you feel that it's weird when you have to hide something about your biological father from your grandparents? is there any rules in this world saying that it's wrong to be good with your own father? i don't think it's exist. even if you drag the case to the highest court also, i have my right to meet up my father. isn't it? but the problem now is, my grandparents are both annoying! seriously pissed off! they really love to fight and argue with me. do you think it's fun? hell no! 

alright back to ikhmal's case. so far my family haven't give him a call even though Joanne told me that my granny took Ikhmal's contact number from her during the graduation day. i was wondering why she wanted Ikhmal's number?  you feel to threatened him is it? or he is one of your biggest threat in life? come on, hubby is not a terrorist. i know him well. please stop all your negative ideas, could you? you won't feel satisfied unless you forgive yourself and ask for sorry to all those people you have scoffed before. this is what lives all about. let's bury the hatchet and we start a new life. isn't it better for our future? am i right? no. i know that i'm always wrong in your eyes. hurm. ok fine im giving up! argue with you won't settle the conflict. 

okey lah i have to go now, have to key in the stupid hotel rate in the stupid system.