Kehilangan - Firman

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Kisah antara kau dan aku
Terpisahkan oleh ruang dan waktu
Menyudutkanmu meninggalkanku

Ku merasa tlah kehilangan
Cintamu yang tlah lama hilang
Kau pergi jauh karena salahku
Yang tak pernah menganggap kamu ada

Asmara memisahkan kita
Mengingatkanku pada dirimu
Gelora mengingatkanku
Bahwa cintamu tlah merasuk jantungku

Sejujurnya ku tak bisa
Hidup tanpa ada kamu aku gila
Seandainya kamu bisa
Mengulang kembali lagi cinta kita

Takkan ku sia-siakan kamu lagi

Asmara memisahkan kita
Mengingatkanku pada dirimu
Gelora mengingatkanku
Bahwa cintamu tlah merasuk jantungku

Sejujurnya ku tak bisa
Hidup tanpa ada kamu aku gila
Seandainya kamu bisa
Mengulang kembali lagi cinta kita

Sejujurnya ku tak bisa
Hidup tanpa ada kamu aku gila

Takkan ku sia-siakan kamu lagi. (2x)

Sepanjang Hidup

aku bersyukur kau di sini kasih,
di kalbu ku mengiringi dan padamu ingin ku sampaikan..
kau cahaya hati, dulu ku palingkan diri dari cinta,
hingga kau hadir ubah segalanya..
inilah janjiku kepadamu,

sepanjang hidup, bersamamu kesetiaanku tulus untukmu
hingga akhir waktu, kau lah cintaku, citaku
sepanjang hidup, seiring waktu aku bersyukur atas hadirmu
kini dan slamanya - aku milikkmu,
yakini hatiku..

kau anugerah sang maha rahim,
semoga Allah berkahi kita..
kekasih, penguat jiwaku berdoa kau dan aku di jannah..
kau temukan kekuatanku disisimu,
kau hadir sempurnakan seluruh hidupku,
inilah janjiku kepadamu..


sepanjang hidup, bersamamu kesetiaanku tulus untukmu
hingga akhir waktu, kau lah cintaku, citaku
sepanjang hidup, seiring waktu aku bersyukur atas hadirmu
kini dan slamanya - aku milikkmu,
yakini hatiku..

syg awak Ikhmal,
sampai selamanya, 
aku milikmu..

A wonderful date!

recall back to year 2010, that was the last time i met my father in Danga Bay, Johor. by the time i went there with my college mate for our group assignment. 

18 March 2013 - after 3 years of  "separating" my life from him, finally i met him up at Shah Alam last night. we do have a great conversation, even though i felt very awkward. yah i have to be honest with myself. after hanging out with daddy for 4 hours, me and didang make our move back to KL at 11pm. and early this morning, i try to search on my sister's facebook or twitter. finally i got her twitter account. at first i can't really recognize her, luckily last night daddy did show me one photo of her which was her default picture on twitter. i followed her with hope that she'll follow me back! she's pretty btw. and much prettier than me. she's tall, fair skin and long black straight hair. talk about didang, awak sungguh menggelikan hati! salam minta restu betul! HAHAHA XD

anyways, i'll update more about my family in JHB next time. got  pending quotations here.

daa! 

Cowok Apa Cewek?

Refer to my post title, for sure the thing that i am about to share is related with my Indonesian agent. there was a silly incident here in the office, whereby my colleague - Harisah got one urgent check in at Piccolo Hotel KL. she keeps on resending the email to her sub agent in Jakarta but there's no reply. at the end she decided to call the person in charge. for all this while, we thought that Valdy - (person in charge) was a lady!! 

Harisah waited for 5 minutes while waiting for the operator to transfer her line to Valdy. and the most shocking part when Valdy answered the phone call with an adorable - gentleman voice! she quickly put down the phone and call for me!

"Sha! kau tau tak suara Valdy tu mcm lelaki!!"

i was like what??? is "she" a guy?? i straight away tell her don't ever tell me if Valdy was a guy. i won't accept this! she keeps on laughing and i urge her to send an email to Valdy, just for clarify on what gender he/she is! 15 minutes later, Valdy sent back the feedback! 

--saya cowok mba. kenapa sih? emangnya kamu kira saya cewek? maaf sering buat kamu capek--

i was like hell no!! you pondan operate ke??

k lah! i'll update soon for more shocking stories :) 

daa! 

Shine Bright!

hello all! seems like this is the most happiest post in year 2013 which I'm going to share with the whole entire world! after 3 months of suffering, finally, victory is in my hand! when comes to the end of the "war", I do feel relieved because he's back!! O God, grant us Your grace and mercy!

after a very long conversation and confession with him, hubby told me the whole story, since the first day he met the girl, the first time he dated the girl and etc.. it hurts me a lot. but I'm trying my very best on not crying anymore  even though its hard for me to accept the truth, but still- i forgive him. But I do hope for the best in the future. and yes, Ms M, please, give us the best cooperation you could ever make. there's lot more men outside rather than you keep on waiting for what belongs to me. yes, i still remember the day when you said i got no right on him. but please remember that the people's surround me are against you! none of them stand behind you, except for your colleagues and friends. you do promised that you won't contact him anymore  but still - you broke your promises! so stop asking me why I keep on fighting, do remember that I'll fight for my right and I'll fight for what I love! So please, you may get lost from now on. It's good enough since I didn't personally attack you in your work place. Luckily, I still can deal with my temper even though your attitude was extremely out of control! Okey, I won't write about you any more girl and i won't bother you anymore only if - YOU GIVE ME YOUR BEST COOPERATION. else, you'll regret for the rest of your life. no i won't harm you. no worries, I'm not as bad as what you think right now. but please be reminded that what goes around comes around.

Alright, back to my place now. I need to settle those pending files and guarantee arrivals. See you guys soon!

I'll be back in a short while =) 

Lambaian Kota Bali!

hi! sedar tak sedar sekarang dah Jumaat. besok dah hujung minggu. back to my Bali story, okey. sya usha2 ticket airasia ke Bali, semuanya mahal nak cekik darah. pakej 4 hari 3 malam ke Bali tu pun tak tau bila nak pakai. kalau boleh.. sya nak pergi bulan September! tunggu Mal stabil. dah kerja tetap, yelah sekarang dia tengah sibuk practical..

okeylah. sya tak tau nak update ape!

nak balik dah ni jam 6.. bubye~

Kuatkah Lagi?

Ya Allah,

hari demi hari yang terpaksa ku lalui dengan penuh duka,

namun  ku selalu bersyukur kerna Engkau masih meminjamku ketabahan yang ku sgt perlukan,

Ya Allah,

demi cinta yang tegar ku kejar saat ini,

berilah aku petunjuk untuk yang terbaik,

jika perpisahan adalah yang terbaik, maka Kau kurniakan sifat keredhaan kepadaku,

jika masa depan aku dan dia cerah dengan izinMu, maka kuatkan lah ikatan cinta kami ya Allah,

sungguh aku lemah untuk mengharungi jalan yang perit ini ya Allah,

dan hanya padaMu, ku pasrah dan menyerah,

kernaku tahu, keputusanMu adalah yang terbaik buatku ya Allah,

Kau kuatkan lah hati aku ya Tuhan, untuk mengharungi duka yang ku lalui sekarang,

Kau sinarkan lah kebahagian padaku Ya Allah..

sungguh ku dah tak kuat..

Aminn...