confession of a broken heart

just now me belek2 my friend, Wawa's myspace and I saw her primary picx was so nice. she was holding a video camera (rasanya kot). that picx reminds me with my ambition (film director) bah. uhuk.. how i wish i can join dis people. but what to do lha. family 1st. ungaa!! i still remember last tyme, when i was in form 5, everytme when Mdm Linda minta essay about ambition, for sure i'll write sumthg about broadcasting & filming. minat gilerr kate org seberang~ yalah. bukan rezeki. huh :(

one more! last nyte, tetiba my ex, AVENIUES SAYZER nipon aku..

he said :

"still remember 28/08 or not?"

"ya why? it's my mom's birthday bah"

"ukan ya, 2 taun yang lepas"

"owh ya, our 2nd year anniversary rite?" (so sad)

"huh. yaah. today..." (silent)

"urmm k lha aku mk mandi lok. bye2"

"bye aveniues"

"bye alicia"

20 years old young man

Once a year I get the chance
To wish you birthday cheer.
It pleases me no end to say,
I wish you another great year. So happy birthday to you Lan,
From the bottom of my heart.
And may your good times multiply,
Till they’re flying off the chart!
HAPPYY 20TH BIRTHDAY YUSRAN!!

<3 yaa owez pwen!!
:)
29/08/1989

your most special day mom

Every day since I was born,
My mother cared for me.
Now that’s a lot of caring,
As anyone can see. Please, Lord, protect my mother,
And keep her safe from harm,
For she is a cherished person,
With great wisdom, love and charm. Lord, it’s my mother’s birthday
So please, help her to see
How much she means to us,
Her loving family.
love u so much!!
28.08.1973

BFF!

some ques about her :)

1.What's his/her full name?

- FELICIA MALIDI LOUIS

2. Does he or she have a girl/boyfriend?

- urmm.. nope! single for dis moment yahh~

3. Do you know a secret about him/her?

- yah sure!

4. Is this person older than you?

- yahh.. my kakak maah :)

5. Has he/she ever cooked for you?

- yerp2!!! maggi! wakakak!

6. When & where was the last time you saw of him/her?

- 8 rumah off lorong 5A. 5 months ago =(

7. Do you have a nickname for each other?

- yah2. pipi & paip hahaha! cam palooi jak!

8. How many times do you talk to this person?

- urmmm.. not sure lah..

9. Why is this person your number one?
- because she is my no one lah! :D

10. Have you seen this person cry?

- ya opcoz lahh.. haiyaa..

11. How long have you known this person?

- since 12 years ago..

12. Have you ever been to the mall with this person?

- yah sure..!

13. Have you ever watched movies at his/her place?

- yah2. mr holidays, harry potter, hakhak! soma ya kmi tgga~

14. If you ever moved away would you miss this person?why?

- sure. coz she's my bestpwen eva bah . :(

15. Have you ever given this person something?

- urmmm yah sure..

16. Have you ever done something really stupid with this person?

- yes we did.. hakhak!

17. what is it that you love doing with this person?
- ngumpat? maybe? hahaha!

19. Do you know everything about this person?

- almost lah.. why?

21. Have you ever worn this person's clothes?

- yalahh..!! she's my sister wat? aduyaii~

22. Have you ever heard this person sing?

- yahh. how i wish i can hear it again doe lari ke laut.. =D

23. Have you and this person ever had a fight that lasted more than 2 days?

- yah.. last tme kali. ;( so sorry..

24. Have you and this person went clubbing?

- EXCUSE ME? NO!!

25. Do you know how to make this person feel happy?

- urmm! yah sure!!

26. Do you and this person talk a lot?

- OMG. opcoz yes...

27. Have you kicked this person?

- for what i kick her bah?

28. Has this person yelled at you?

- never?

freaky friday yarhh~

hohoho.. dearest wawa,

still remember last week? kdak urg gila jak we 2 duduk kat tangga. waiting for SOMEONE so damn special! "someone?" yeah someone special bahh! hahahaha! OMG that boy!!!!! wearing white baju melayu with songkok. OMG so damn sweet little young man :) you know what? ur so sweett.. so handsome.. so cute!! so damn gorgeous!!

Owh A****** Kali Pertama Terpandang Wajah
Terpegun aku dan Terpesona
Dengan Senyuman dan Lirikanmu
Membuat aku Telah Jatuh Cinta

Mr A***** Mungkinkah Dikau
Laki Yang Kucari Dalam Jagaku
Selalu Terbayang
Termimpi-mimpi
Hingga Terbawa Di Dalam Lenaku

Andainya Dirimu Sudi Menerimaku
Kan Kumahkotakanmu Putra Di Hatiku

Biarpun Berjuta Rintangan Yang Melanda
Rela Kukorbankannya Untuk Memilikimu

Kau A********* Setinggi Gunung Harapan
Bukalah Pintu Hatimu Untuk Cinta Ini
Biar Berkurun Lama Dikau Kunantikan
Semoga Impian ini Kan Menjadi Nyata
Bersamamu owh A*****

hahahahahahaha! who's A bukan nama sebenar? aku & Wawa saja yg tau..

happy birthday Alicia!

thanks everyone!

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1st person nk wish me, Dzul :
happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to my love alicia, happy birthday to you. syg, harap2 hbgn kta bkekalan hngga hjung nyawa, ayg pnjg umo n murah rzki. mwaaahhh!

Fabian :
Happy Birthday Sulu..

Huston :
Happy b'day Fel..

Sis Fiffy :
Dude! Happy Bday! Soe lmbt wish.. Awl ku tdo marek

Mira :
Happy birthday syg.. may god bless u.. and dimurahkn rezeki.. ^_^ psst.. bok bgn tk ya la l8 wish. sry k :P

Wawa :
Hppy birthday my dear.. luv u so much.. take care of urself ky. muaxxxx99.. miss u..

Mummy :
oii! 18 taun dah kau ka? pa kw mok taun tk? hehehe.. happy birthday!

Mummy 2 :
Happy Birthday to u..

Sys Irene :
Happy Birthday.. :)

Lulu :
Au.. Hppy brtday..

Cristy Ding :
ee.. u kat crian ho, aku g bt7 lah. anyway Hepy bday..

Effa Katrina :
Epy Bday denk! GBU! :) Tke k o. He

Sys Cynthia :
Sys, Hepi Birthday! ha3! lupa ku wish. lv u sys! mwach! bla mu p taman? ptg tik alone ku da ramin bha. getik lah lepak ngan ku. bw laptop mu.

Vivi Nelson :
uit! its me Vivi! huh, if im not mistaken, its ur BIRTHDAY 2day rite? hahahah, if that so, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!! may u live in harmony and enjoyable life k?

Jeremy John :
Happy birthday to u.. god bless u 4ever n ever

Sys Deidre :
Happy birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FROM FRIENDSTER..

Dyg Maani Zuriah :
Oit! happy birthday gal! miahahahahaha =D

Sis Jesseca :
Hapie bUffday sis!
apuu. dh bsai indu ktai tuk..
lma dh xmeda nyu dh ka blki dak..
hehehe..
=P
jz kiddin'z ^^

Sis Ivy :
happy birthday to u..
happy birthday to u..
happy birthday to u..
happy birthday to u!

Emelia Empaee :
ding!!
happy birthday!
big gurlz oledi oo..

Sys Avy :
sys sys,
just wanna wish u..
Happy birthday!
may your birthday bring
you as much happiness
as you give to anyone who knows you
hehe..
luv ya sys..

anyway thanks everyone. luv u guys so much!!
GBU!

farewell Zy, best Johorian eva

I wish you farewell,
To new and better things,
No matter how hard it is,
Never give it up.
Reach for what you want,
And you'll soar into the sky.
So long, I bid you a farewell,
No matter how hard it may be to let you go.
I'll see you again,
whether you come to visit or it's in my memories.
Never forget those who love you,
for they are always there for you.
I'm here for you.
As your friend, and sister,
I wish you a farewell,
To a new and more exciting adventure.
Although there will be hard times,
Forget them and remember the good ones
You had here with your family and friends.
I'll love you always.
Farewell.

setahun berlalu, Ramadhan dtg lg.

setahun tlah berlalu kini Ramadhan tiba lg. masihku ingat setahun yg lepas, aku & dirimu asyik bertengkar sehingga menyebabkn perpisahan. i dun wan da same thing happen bha :( jera aieh malar klaie. syg promise me, no more Wina, no more skandal2, no more Rima, no more what so ever lah! tau ku.. u have too much girl-friends. i still remmber last year, aduh. almost everyday bah we 2 klaie. sakit tau x benda ya? mrh doesnt mean tat i dun luv u nymore. me still syg u wat. terus trang ku mdh, ku trasa ngan ayt kw riya. ku mena bz mlah assignment, kw mdh ku bz date ngan laki lain. aku blit keja aher, pun kw x tau. aku keja cney pn kw x tau. aku plh apa pn kw x tau. nasib kw tau aku blajar cney n ambek pa. bla ku balit Sarawak pun kw x tau. nk kw tau nganok ku jak. smpei kw pdh ku having sex with laki semenanjung. aku x sehina ya okey. aku still blh jaga diri aku sbaik mungkin. ku ingat org tua aku kt kpg mk the best from me. ku syg family ku, ku syg agama ku. & i wouldn't do something stupid okey. ku taulah ku sik sempurna ney. x smpurna WINA nk kw pdh ya. nektok sapa smpurna? sapa jwak kw cari? Sya bah..!!! Sya nok kw pdh sial bodoh paloi tok jwak kw cari. kw ngis time susah aku tk jwak tmpat kw btanggak. ney Wina kau bah? ney Rima nok kw angongkn dolok? ney? pdh lok? ya tulah kwu curang jak kerja. ngam lah ya! riya kw mdh KLMU bodoh? bah lah. f.6 bait glak lah? k fine. mls dh kU mk taip. sakit ati ku!!!

my 18th birthday

OMG! setelah sekian lama tak berjumpa yg tersyg. finaallyyyyyy!!!! ketemu akhirnyaa.. kangen banget tau nggak ama kalian? we 3 jumpa terus buka sidang mengumpat. mangsa pertama smstinya NINI :D hahahahahah! we laugh lyke wat ka smpei 1 KFC dgr. nang cobih.. NINI mcm singa lah.. soma kuar.. gila bahh hans & chiew fong. anyway, thanks coz still ingat my birthday though we 3 nyaris2 lost contact. ungaa! <3>

17th bufday memories with..

1st.. Sis Fiffy!
date :21.08.2008
venue : KFC Serian
time : 12 noon

pndai u bulak me hoh. pdh teman plh kerja kursus lha. bulak u! anyway thanks 4 everything.. i really2 appreciate it. rindu ku knangan yaa. kita mbak Brenda along rite? n Mei Choo jd cacing kepanasan d.. hahahahah!

2nd.. Polis2 & Kadet Polis SMK Tarat
date : 23.08.2008
venue : rmh panjang KPG Terbat Mawang, Serian
time : 12 am cun2

wuyOhh.. mlm ya nang best aluu aieh. betanda & nyanyii. melalak like wat.. nang syiok giler3 lah.. band polis ya pn gempak aluu! syok ku singing with them.. cm knsert dirik mpun jak asa. hahahaah! p mena apa? tepat jam 12 mlm, tgh ku syok2 dibah pentas minum air sejuk & ready 2 "perform" pasya. suddenly i heard, bunyi gitar ngan irama lagu selamat harijadi. shit.. it's my birthday!! OMG im 17 years old!! OMG! excited lah tek!! ASP pun ambk pix ku k knangan angkh kt balai polis k takutkn lipas dlm lokap. :) see? femes x? den.. all of them dtg salam.. "happy birthday felicity alicia" wahh.. asa kacak jak ku. pa gik. dis ppl swoh ku g pentas & berucap ala2 YB. aku ambk jak mic ya.. "slamat mlm soma warga kpg terbat & pegawai2 skalian & x lupa jgak kpd ahli kadet polis yg dikasihi skalian.. terlbih dahulu sy ingin ucpkn jutaan terima kasih ats ksudian kalian bt suprise kat aku.. takpa aku x kesah. & ni lah harijadi paling gempak bagi aku! siap ada live band lgi..thanks banyak2 & may God bless u all..".

3rd.. my own family
date : 31.08.2008
venue : my house
time : 7 pm

yeah. kali ni btl2 wa kene beb.. coz my cuzzy, Raynold from Matang, dtg Serian ctok smata-mata mk nyambut birthday. aku pun heran! bah sikpalah. lantak kw lah denk.. mlm ya. aku ilek2 jak duduk blakang. well, bukan kita mpun function so duduk diam jak lah. gago nar jwak.. kakya, dtg sowng merik ku hadiah. ku pon bingung jwak. pa ndak ka jadi ngan c'dak tok. slh urg aieh denk! cobih.. pasya, time cdak kuarkn kek ya, ada gik 2 kek. ku heranlah.. cobih!! terang2 sia nama aku.. sial siot. terkjut ku! pkrkan apa tek! aku heran bah cney cdak angkh kek ya bah.. cney ndak kha cdak napok kek ya. maka ais box cgek jak.. p nang best lha. byk kantao ku dpt denk.. well, kn rami urg.. anyway thanks to soma crew2 yg terlibat dlm menjayakan misi wa kena beb tok..

happy birthday bie..

23.08.1989

I’m wishing you another year
Of laughter, joy and fun,
Surprises, love and happiness,
And when your birthday’s done,I hope you feel deep in your heart,
As your birthdays come and go,
How very much you mean to me,
More than you can know.
love u so much Joanna @ bibie..
God Bless YOU always.
happy birthday!

Fiffy. i mish u bha :(

fi.. still remember dis cake?
OMG mish u so much.
genap a year lepas,
kw plh suprise tok di KFC.
now, ur not around while im here.
so sad bah.
my birthday cam xda mkna jak dis year without u.
OMG mish u so much!! :(
dahlah. mls mk taip byk2.
lak ngis gk ku aieh..
aduh.. sedih bena2 ku aieh.
pkrkn balit jmpa kw.
rupanya ku silap.
=[
mish u aieh..
ungaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!

from Sentul to Serian

bah juh kaka swk gik. lama ku x dgr aiehh., exam basic english riya nang senang alu2. ada gik kuar sal Tarzan. hokhokhok. gya kha bnyi nya? xtau ku hesh. kakya essay nya horrible dream. best shiot.. hakhak! epp. boh kaka jabak. ngada jak ku tok aieh. hah! paper intro ya susah aluu ehs! aku asa mok terjun jak dr tngkat 8 ya. apuu! resort & spa? pa ciri2 nya? lupa ku! OMG! byk gik benda aku lupa. apuuu.. nang gila paper ya aieh. udah lah dekan fakulti mekrank kedak palat. msuk jak exam hall dh bising2. "u guys are not allowed to bla2. n bla3.." Owh dekan, i hate u sygg :) tepat jam 11 pagi. yeah. hbis oleti paper mek. ku antam jak pa2 sia. hahaha! pasya, kmk org gi maju junction, yalah tempat ku keja ya. mk ambek IC lha tewk. masuk jak ku JPN, org ya mdh blom siap gik. cobih. sakit nar jwak ati aku dgr aieh!

pasya, aku, mira & lulu balit umh. sampei jak gate, razy gk msj swoh dtg umh. bah. dtglah kmi. nya mbak ku gi Johor! cobihh.. cam kilat jk ku bsiap, kmi btolak jam 2 ptg. sampei jak Johor dah jam 5 ptg. jauh sik? kakya. bleh2 jak mum & dad nya bajet ku grk razy. sik blh2.. syg ku ngan si anu ku. urmm.. skali rzy mdh nya sikpat balit KL mlm tok. cobih! gney lah? besok ku dah balit kuching. mena x? nahh. kan susah? aduii.. aku pn dh hilang idea dh nektok aieh. last2 nya swoh ku blit k bus. nait double Decker gik ya. best aluu.. kdak sakai jak bnyi aieh! hahaha!

nait jak bus ya dha jam 6 ptg. agak2 sampei KL jam brapa? wahh. lama ya aieh denk. akaiii indai! dahlah kt ats. pening palak ku. sampei Melaka gik jam 7, apuu! blom gk negeri sembilan & selangor. yobihh. kepak ewhh.. aku sampei KL jam 9.30mlm. lapar gilak2 ewh tyme ya. sampei jam Puduraya, terus ku lari gi train nait sampei Tititwangsa. aku x sanggup gi Sentul Timur. apuu.. den. sampei jak Titiwangsa, makoii! mok tggu bus T224. lama mok mampus bah! ku asa mk pengsan jk sia gastrik ku sampei. smpei jak Tmn Dato Senu, trus ku gi mam kt kdai abg John.

about 12am bok ku blit kondo. den.. aku gi cuci baju. cuci pnya cuci. bangkai btoi si Bibie, nya simbah ku pkei air sabun. nya mdh "sha!!! kw balik besok bah kan? happy birthdayy!!" sial ank ya!! cobih blom ku smbah mnyak gk nya ya. tguu ku balit lak.. apuu.. pas ku setel soma, ku mbak Oyun gi umh Arfan ambek lappy ku dari Daddy. den. zzzz..

bah chaw lok. aku sedar. borink nar bnda nk ku taip tok. wakakak!

congrats sis!

finally im home! gosh. i mish Sarawak so damn much.. 1st of all, tahniah banget sanget 2 my sis, Irene Gumiloh 4 her segulung Ijazah. heheeh. soe i 4got 2 bring back my USB so i can't transfer da pixxy from my cellphone. taik nar jwak. apuu!

Kuching!!! kmk winduuu ktk bah!!

setelah 3 bulan kmk sik balit-balit. akhirnya, dan pasti!! besok kmk balit jam 12.55pm. flight AK lupa apa kahh? yg penting kmk balit k LCCT. ariya teket belon MAS hangus gara2 x dpt tukar tarikh. so sik pat balit k KLIA lah.. sikpa Gawai taun depan mek balit k belon MAS. yipii!!! exam tek? owh tidak. kmk sik tauk pa ndak ka ditulis kmk. lantak lah pa mok jadi. hehehe. yg penting, kmk dh hbis exam & good luck ngan c'dak nok blom habis ya, hbis jak exam tek, kmk terus ngekot Razy gi Johor. cobih kepak alu mek! nektok dh jam 1 pagi, p yalah tek excited mok balit semadi bok dpt lappy blit. bah! kmk chau lok. pa pun. mok pdh. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ngan housemate kmk si BIBIE a.k.a JOANNE. eh tebalit.. hehehe. & HAPPY BIRTHDAY to me.. pasan aluu kmk. yalah. bufday Ahad tok.. sapa ndak ka sik happy dah 18 taun.. CIMB pun dh leh kuar lebih rm200 sehari. wakakakkakak!! & FYI, kmk cuti start ari besok 19.08.2009 sampei 31.08.2009. yobih rugi aluu sik tangga konsert kat KLCC & dataran merdeka. konfem ada function ariya lak nak? bah mek chau lok. besok kat Kuching sambung ceta.. shalom!

IBU

ma,

hadirnya dia kernamu,

disaat kau brtarung nyawa di subuh pagi,

aku tidur dgn lena skali,

tanpa merasai sakit yg dkau lalui,

bhgia hdupmu di sana ma,

ampuni sgala slh silapku

jika aku sering menyakitimu.

bukan ku x syg.

cuma aku x matang utk berfikir

& mengeluarkn kata.

ma,

moga panjang usiamu ku doakan dari jauh.

pengorbananmu mlhirkn kmi bertiga

xkan dptku lupa shgga akhr hyat,