minta maaf pada yg terasa.

dearest sis. terkenyit alu ku baca komen kw ya. x sangka ku kw kempang alu kuarkn ayat kdk ya. (mdh ku pmpuan gatal agik gago mok cari skandal kat fs). takrank kali dgr ceta dr 1 pihak jak. coba takrank kumpulkn ku, Venius & Dzul skali. baru boleh nyumpah salah sapa. xda gerek org dlm dunia tok bahagia & x jera mun dpt tau satu2nya nok nya syg polah SEX ngan pelacur. k. kali tok ku buka cerita sak soma org tau. mun slama tok soma slhkan ku menggatal. k fine. ku akui slh diriku. dlm stgh taun, Aveniues menghilangkan diri. xda berita. xda khabar. tang tetiba ku dgr, dr sumber nOk blh ku percaya, nya polah seks ngan pelacur mlm harijadinya yg ke-18. hati sapa x hancur bah kan? masa ya ku balit tuisyen. x trasa ku lintas jln tanpa tangga kiri kanan. bgku, hidup mati ku biarlah sampei sia. mun slama staun tk. ku pndam soma nok ada dlm driku. ku xmok org tau, Aveniues nok hari2 ku sebut ya. x seindah yg disangka. bila org tanya, knak x msj grk. ku pdh Aveniuesku study. padahal nya kerja di Pub. ku x kesah lah. p fikirlah. masa depan diri nya mpun. ku syg nya. nya gk sulung. kali family nya nok baca menyampah ngn ku. mdh ku eksen mok ambik ati. sak lah. salah ku x jaga Boy. biarlah. ku ampunkan nya. kali ya slh nya. silap nya. coz xda org sempurna, sesempurna Allah pncipta sgala yg kelihatan & x kelihatan. wah! b'jiwang indah ku. wlupun Boy dh plh ku sdmikian rupa. x kalak ku bnci nya. kdak nOk ompwan laen plh. kali nya pun deserve 2nd peluang. bln 10. auk. bln ya, start Boy cari ku balit. nya kembali pada Aveniues nok mula ku knal dolok. mun dolok nya rep msj ku "bah. ok. siktau. no komen. ..." nektok nya dah kembali cam dolok. & pada masa yg sama. ku dpt tau, nya berskandal ngan kwn ku sendiri. Christin. besarnya dugaan dlm hdup tok ya Tuhan. x jwak ku pdh ngan nya ku tau. coz ku tau, nya pun xmok ku tau. Dzul? boh slhkan Zul aieh. ukn slhnya dlm soma tok. ukn nya minta pun. & boh cop kn Zul perampas. lalek dah nya ngr, org mdh nya perampas. makan kwn pa soma ya. tanya nok atas b4 takrank nak nuduh sapa-sapa. ku x pnh minta soma tok terjadi. udahlah ku ngan Dzul, x seagama, x sebangsa. hampir setiap saat & waktu kami salah faham. bulan 11. 24jam ku klaie ngan Dzul. x pnh kami berbaik. coz nya dpt rasa, ku smakin jauh dri nya. nya sllu sndir nya org kedua jak. nya tau, Aveniues dah balit. setelah sekian lama nya menghilang. babak sms & telefon dah habis after ku balit Limbang 1Dec2008. time ku balit, ukn mudah bgku mok jelaskan somanya. gikpun, ku tangga jelas ksngguhan Boy mok berubah ats ksilapan masa lalunya. ukn mudah aieh, mun takrank d tempat ku. ukan skadar ya, ada gik nya bergerek ngan sorg pmpuan Sabah, SMK Kubong. Ivy namanya. udah somanya berlalu, baru nya gtau ku. 3 lwn 1 dah salahnya berbanding ku. agik ku maafkn nya, x pnh ku kurangkn ksih syg ku ngan nya. langsung x. mun bagi jenis kwn ku, Fie ya? lama dah MALATOP sampei 1 S'wak dpt asa bahang nya manaz. coba nya jumpa grk cam Maani? dah lama dah Maani kelar tangan nya ngenang kw Boy. sbb kw jmpa ku. agik ada pngampunan bg kw. sbb ku masih syg kw. smpei saat tok. ku maafkn sgala nok kw plh di masa lalu. ku cuma mok, antara kita 3 wujud kebahagiaan. jera ku Boy, mena ku jera. jera2 ku ngenang Acid dolok. x kdak kw aieh. sbb ku asa serasi dh ngan kw. bahagia ku asa time ku tangga perubahan kw. amen.. time kita 4 Mindy & Maani ngabang Christmas? seolah-olah xda apa2 salah silap nok ku ngan kw polah. x terlintas lam fikirann ku tok, penghujung hubungan kita, aku & kw masing-masing bawa haluan masing-masing. cney2 pun kw berada kinek tok Aveniues, jaga diri kw. Boh kw ulangi salah silap kw gik. boh samakan ku ngan nOk laen. x soma ompwan sanggup terima situasi jera tiap masa aieh. kali ku dah besa. dari kecik gk ku dah jera. ukn mok puji diri mpun lha. pa pun, doaku xkan putus2 bagi kw. mun kw dah turun keja (offshore), hati-hati k? mun ya jalan nok kw pilih, ku doakan kw berjaya. ku bulan 6 tok g KL dah, sambung belajar sia. arap kw baca. & arap kw fhm. ku xkn pnh hpuskn kw dr ingtanku, dr hti & dr hdup ku sampei bila-bila pun. coz, hanya kita 3 tau apa nok kita lalui. & x soma org leh lalui saat2 kita nangis sama, ktwa sama. & ku pastikn rndu soma ya d ctok. knangan ya, ku mbak. g cney pun ku klak. ku hargai, pengorbanan kw & Zul. & thanks ku ucap coz takrank bagiku masa bagiku pilih antara kalian. walau ku tau, ya ukn ssuatu nOk mudah & gampang. setiap ksdihan antara kalian 2, xkan ku lupa. & ku hrgai smpei bila2 pn. thnkx aveniues, atas ksh syg nok kw brikan bg ku. saat kw jga ku, tiap kli ku ngdu ku skit palak. smpei kdg2 ku terlena kw plh. soma ya xkan pnh ku lupa. masa kita dwak shopping cam tuyuk cari brg baby, maka kita lom ada apa2 pun ikatan. & thnkx ats ktbahan kw hrungi soma tk. ku tau, ukn snang bg kw. x smddah nok org luar sangkakan. knangan kita jogging gi Bukit. kita mkn sama, jln kat Plaza tiap hujung minggu. bahagia ku aieh. tp ku tau, soma tok dah berlalu. & di dpan, dh ada kehidupan baru ku. & kw jwak ada. p pa pun, ku agik arap. antara kita, masih ada pluang. wlupun ukn bsama gik kdak dolok. bg family Aveniues. byk2 ku mnta maaf, ngan adik bradiknya. ngan Pat, Pric, Freddy, & Ika skali. ngan mummy nya skali. ku tau ku tok bwa sial ngan Boy. plh nya kcewa. p ku sndiri x minta tok berlaku. yalah. gney-gney pun ku pdh, cuma ku, Boy & Zul jak tau & faham.

tamat.

am i stupid. or just dot.dot.dot...

heran ku. mun jiwang konfem in BM baku. ada skali, ku chat ngan Akoe di YM as usual lha. n den suddenly Dzul pdh mok on9 jwak. bah. chat lah kami cam besa.mula-mula bait nya. skali last-last, len jak caranya mesej ku. kasar bah. udahlah ku byk keja nak diator tme ya. ku tnya nya phl. nya mlar pdh "lu pikirlah sendiri" cobi. kdak tk kha nya msj ku? sedih alu-alu ku. ku trus op lam kdaan sOma keja tggendala. ku msj nya pkei hp. nek ats ku. xda mood alu ku. bah! jeles duhal nya. lam fs ku (who i want to meet) ada nama AVENIUES SAYZER. cemburu paduhal Zul tok. huh. besalah. mun dah Zul manas. bOh jak. kedong nya jumpa owg kdk ku tOk. sbr jk ngn nya. mun nya jumpa nok sama cam nya bok nya asa jera. ku cuma mok harapkan nya ubah pangey kuat jeles ya. ya jak pinta ku :(

me & my 20sen.

i went to H&L to buy drinks & the price of a bottle of vanilla coke is RM1.80. I bring it to the counter and ready to pay it (siap kuarkan rm2 from my pocket) . after the cashier tit tit tit it, she gve me the resit without giving me back the baki! aper dar! so i ask her like this :

me : kak! 20senn!
cashier : hah?
me : 20sen ku bah
cashier : owh ya! sorry sorry

see? how clever i am?

birthday takrank is just around the corner!!!

Dayang Maani Zuriah
8th May, 1992

uit. happy birthday sweet 17 to you my dear & best of luck in your coming SPM.
i have nothing for eu. just a sederet doa so that eu
success in your examinations, relationship, & somanya.
remember Limbang, remember the Alicias.
you know what i mean right?
thanks for being such a good friend for me,
(jiwang lha plak ku)
~_~
take care. God bless :)

p/s : to Mr Aaron,
take a GOOD care of my friend, Maynie.
don't ever brolah.
i don't like to see ur binian sedih2.
k?

Effa Katrina
8th May, 1992

p/s : to Mr Talib,
syg Effa sama cam kau syg rock kau ya.
i just wanna see her happy
with you.
k?
promise me ahh?

happy birthday sweet 17 to eu Fa.
anyway good luck for ur coming SPM.
sorry for everything in the pass.
I'm just hopping that our friendship
will last forever!
take care & God bless :)

sha sayangg kamoo dwak :)

aku dan dirimu

aku dan dirimu

tiba saatnya kita saling bicara
tentang perasaan yang kian menyiksa
tentang rindu yang menggebu
tentang cinta yang tak terungkap

sudah terlalu lama kita berdiam
tenggelam dalam gelisah yang tak teredam
memenuhi mimpi-mimpimu malam kita

duhai cintaku, Dzulku, lepaskanlah
perasaanmu, rindumu, seluruh cintamu
dan kini hanya ada aku dan dirimu
sesaat di keabadian

jika sang waktu bisa kita hentikan
dan segala mimpi-mimpi jadi kenyataan
meleburkan semua batas
antara kau dan aku,
kita...

TENTATIVE UPCOMING YOUTH EVENTS 2009

Sat, 28 Mar Earth Hour
Let switch off our lights and fight global warming!

Sun, 29 Mar 3.00pm – Kuching Archdiocesan Youth Day Meeting
for PYM representatives only.
Followed by dinner and forum with Archbishop.

Sun, 5 Apr 2.30pm – PYM meeting

Sun, 19 Apr 9.30am – Youth Mass
followed by activities in the Church Hall.

Fri, 1 May Heart of KAYD 09
training for servants of KAYD.

Sun, 3 May Vocation Sunday
visit to seminary and religious houses to promote vocations.
Sat-Sun, 16-17 May Vocation Discernment Weekend for Young Men
Venue: St Peter’s College

Sat, 23 May Family Seminar (with youth sessions)

*Sun, 24 May Diaconal Ordination of Adrian Kho
Venue: St Stephen, Bau

Sat-Sun, 13-14 Jun PYM Outreach to Kpg Longgo

Sat, 20 Jun Fight Global Warming!
Screening of “An Inconvenient Truth”

Sat-Sun, 15-16 Aug KAYD Pre-event Retreat
for KAYD Servants only

Fri-Sun, 28-30 Aug Kuching Archdiocesan Youth Day!
Venue: Christian Ecumenical Worship Centre

*Sun-Tue, 20-22 Sep Archdiocesan Mid-term Review
youth represenatitives together with other parish delegates only

*Sat-Sun, 26-27 Sep Feast of St Theresa

Fri, 27 Nov Ex-KAYA Reunion Dinner

thursday.

thursday morning rain is falling.. ekeleh! me the blacky, Vivi the shorty, & Fiffy the flower pot went to BSN as early as 8.30 in the morning. I saw a lot-ta human being waiting infront of the bank. While waiting for the bank terbuka luas-luas, both of us (me & Fiffy) went to Chop Jeee Chong to buy tali warna-warna.

(stupid BSN a.k.a Bank SEMADI NADAI)
when i came in, i went to the counter and ask for transferring account's borang from the accountant. Dengan SELAMBER nyer he jawab like this "owh. mun mok transfer gi MayBank ktk g CIMB jak. Coz c'tok sik dapat polah dek" amboii! Malas pdh jak bah denk oii! While Fiffy & Vivi beresin their urusan with that idiot bank, I went to CIMB, just 100m from BSN. I went to the customer services counter and ask for help from one of the pegawai. She said that I need to pay extra rm2 for the bunga or what so ever lah.memandangkan kawu pun berbunga-bunga. so I decided to settle the things later with my grandpa. while waiting for Fiffy & Vivi, I went to kedai relod. suddenly i saw someone looks too familiar! Effa duhal. About 20 minutes later, V & F agak me & the three of us went to MAKAN at idola cafe, just sebelah CIMB bank. Vivi is the one whom ordered the cheapest lunch. (rm4.50 ONLY). hahahahahahaha! after having lunch, we went to Charlene while waiting for Vianney.

from Maani's blog.

read this. aveniues. aveniues. & aveniues!!!!!!!!! i love u!!!!!!!!! ~_~
(see, how happy am i with him. until Maani coretkan our happiness)

Woohakk. I'm damn tired today! Tired going ngabang to friends houses and AARON'S house as well! :D Hoho! I really wish this day won't end. I had fun at his house! Eventhough I was forced to eat by Aaron, and two of his brothers, Jmie & Ebunk. Urgh! Sumbat jak lh~ :P

Earlier this day, (around 12 a.m I think), I went wishing my friends and teachers Merry Christmas. I wrote the same message and sent it to, 17 people. However, only 7 people replied my message! Yeehakk :) And when I woke up this morning, which is at 8 o' clock, I recieved two more 'Thank You' messages. One from an old friend, Emiliana, and the other, from a great teacher of mine, Miss Sim.

Talking about Miss Sim, I messaged her for a while this morning. I told her I was going to move to Miri next year. Then she told me she got her transfer to Kuching. Hoho. I can imagine how happy she is. She's been applying for transfer since I forgot when and keeps telling my class how she really wish to go back to Kuching eventhough all odds are against her. Aww, I'll miss her class. However, I'm happy for her. I feel really lucky getting to be one of her student. She's fun, and veryyy funny! I remembered one of her stories about her experience teaching 'bad student's' at er- I forgot. Hihi.

Here's how the story go, (don't get mad Miss Sim! :] And do correct me if I'm wrong!) Before she tought us at SMKL, she was teaching a problematic class with some problematic students. So then, she was teaching English cause' that's her profession. That time, she said she was scolding one of the student's because he/she had a very bad hand writing. As the teacher, she tried to 'fix' his/her writing. So she wrote the word 'S' on the board and told the whole class, 'Look at my S, this is how you should write it'. Suddenly she said, the class started laughing at her. She who was still wondering but didn't care much about the laughter, went on saying, 'Look at my S. It's very pretty right?'. And the class went laughing again. At first, our class didn't understand her story either. Until, she told us what her students' really meant. She said, when she asked the class why they were laughing, one of the students' answered her, "You said 'Look at your ASS' teacher, that's why'. Hahahaaa =D Our class went laughing out loud hearing her saying that! Too loud, till' Cikgu Raja popped his head to our class window. And the boys had that 'steamy' face on. Then she said, pronounciation, is very important. I'll remember that for internity Miss Sim. Hihi.

Oh well, talking about my day ngabang-ing to my friends houses, I had a day full of laughter! Well, thanks to Sha, and another Sha. Hahaaa :) We were laughing out loud like hell. Every house we go, all three of us would laugh very loud. *Shameless* Heheh. Allow me to tell this year's experience going ngabang.

First, like always, I went to Alicia's house. Somewhere around 1 o' clock. It was such a hot day! Luckily her house was just seberang pintu, so, I quickly ran to her house. Hahaa. When I entered her house, I saw Sha (real name is Sha too), with her BF, Avenius there already. So, 4 of us sat down, eating & drinking coke while watching Cicak Man till' the end. To be honest, I am no fan of Malaysian movie. Tengok je lh :)) After Cicak Man finished, we headed of to Avenius's house, which was uphill, not far away from Alicia's (and mine too).

So four of us, were walking under the hot sun, uphill, and laughing very loud on our way. Well, nothing much happened at his house. Except that I showed my talent in Billard. Hahaa. I told the girls that every colours of the ball has it's own mark. It was only a guess you know! Fuhh. One lucky guess! =D At the same time, I was contacting Aaron, asking him is it the perfect time to come to his home, and he said, YES! So, the 4 of us headed to his home, this time, by car. Luckily Avenius knows how to drive and was able to borrow his dad's car. Hihi :)

When we arrived infront of Aaron's house, the doors were closed. Then Avenius and both Sha kept asking me, ''Betul kan' Aaron ada?''. Hahaa. Before I got to answer them, Aaron, and his mother, who once upon a time was my English teacher during primary school, opened the door. I smiled till' to my ears seeing him in blue :)

As my way into the house, I heard his mum asking who was wit Avenius in the car (at that moment Avenius was parking the car, and Sha didn't want to leave him. Note : Both of them are COUPLES). Then, with Aaron's selamba-dity, he answered, Sha is actually Avenius's cousin. Suka hati die je kn? Hahaa. So we entered the house anyway, and greeted his whole family (except for his lil' sister). Before we could even 'warm' the sofa, we were invited to eat. There was kelupis and rice, with chicken curry served. I went for kelupis and chicken curry. On my way back to the living room together with the foods, I heard a voice from behind, shouting, 'Ooi Maani! Kw ya mkn byk kit! Sak besar, dpt kawin cepat'. Ahahahaa. It was Ebunk, Aaron's big bro. Heheh ;)

After finishing our food, we didn't stop there only. We went for some cocktails. Aaron helped me taking my cocktail. Hee~ Then there was a tap on my shoulder as I was just started to bermanja with Aaron. It was Ebunk, asking me where my plate was. I thought he wanted to wash it for me, so I told him my plate was outside, and asked him to get it for himself. But then, he told my friend to take my plate so that he can add more food for skinny me! +_+' Kind of you Ebunk, but I was stuffed at that time! Thanks for trying to make me fat anyway. Hahaaa =D

The cocktail was the last for my friends, but not for me. I was forced to try every piece of cake. After being 'blackmailed' by Aaron, I stuffed the cakes in me anyway. Heheee. That time, Avenius was already contacting Steve, telling him that his house will be next. So it was. All 5, (including Aaron) went to Steve's house. But before leaving Aaron's house, I took a couple of pictures with him, and also took a picture of their family potrait not realising that his father was just behind me! *Embaressed*

When we arrived to Steve's house, there were 3 dogs playing happily infront of his house! So, it took me and my two girlfriends a long time before entering Steve's house. The dogs chases people you see! *Scared, real scared!* At Steve's house, all of us were laughing very very loud! Well, that's what happen if gangs meet gangs. Hahaa :) After a while there, Sha (Avenius's GF), invited us to her house. So, there we go again, back into the car, heading back. As Avenius reversed the car, the engine kept on switching off. Maybe it was because the food that we ate which made the car hardly to move. Hehee. Aaron didn't follow us to Sha's house, instead, he went back home. *Dissappointed*

Now, at Sha's house. It was just opposite of Avenius's block, and not far away from my home. We laughed out loud there too. And once in a while, adding our sins by talking bad bad stuffs about 'someone'. Hehehh ;) Skip skip skip. We then, headed back to Alicia's home, for the second time. We were there for only half an hour, for our time limit, was nearly to the end, which was at 5 o' clock. Hehehh ;) At Alicia's house, me and Sha kept on laughing for some stupid talk that was accidently made. We were talking about 'lady boys' and er- nevermind. Hahaaa. Our day ended at 5 o' clock something. I was tired! But felt really worth it. However, this is going to continue tomorrow! ;D We promised another outing to other peoples' houses. Heheh :) Btw, the image above was the Christmas tree in Alicia's house. The biggest of em' all. :))

Urgh. Too much talking, I think my readers are bored already! :D

survey again & again

1. When you look at yourself in the mirror in the morning, what's the first thing you say?

* bidaaaa waaa!

2. How much cash do you have on you?

* rm40++

3. What's a word that rhymes with "TEST"?

* best?

4. Favorite planet?

* venus

5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone?

* rashid

6. What is your main ring tone on your phone?

* i don't have canggih2 cellphone lah. so my ringtone berbunyi "tititititt tit tit!"

7. What shirt are you wearing?

* black shirt with a picx of kittens :D

8. Do you love yourself?

* nahh. i dun think so?

9. Name the brand of your shoes you're currently wearing?

* urmm. ku kaki ayam nektok~

10. Bright or Dark Room?

* dark. yohhh. hitam nampak kemas. pakah?

11. What were you doing at midnight last night?

* aku? chatting

12. What did your last text message you received on your cell say?

* "amu paduhal yah. copy taye ndeg cOmp amu" from Vianney

13. What's a saying that you say a lot?

* palatt jwakk~

14. Who told you they loved you?

* zul. almost every secondx. selsema ku dgr.! & my fanatics. :D

15. Last furry thing you touched?

* yg berbuluuu lahh. :D

16. How Many Drugs Have You Done In The Past three Days?

* panadol actEE pas! hahaha

17. How many cell phone do you have?

* 3. on the way to 4! woww! =D

18. Favorite age you have been so far?

* sweetttt 16 :)

19. Your worst day?

* 18January2009. 1 jam saja, ku telah bisa cintai kamu aveniues, namun bagiku, mlupakanmu
butuh waktu ku seumur hidupkuu.

20. What is your current desktop picture?

* ma skulmates with cikgu nOjip

21. What was the last thing you said to someone?

* bah. esk balik kpg ku bg balit (to Vianney)

22. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to change a major regret?

* major regret.

23. Do you like someone?

* yes i do :)

24. The last song you listened to?
* projek pop! bukan superstar!

mengisi kebuhsanan

1.Have you smoked a whole box of cigarettes before?

* nope. i'm not a SMOKER.

2. How old are you?

* 18 years old. :)

3. Who's the last person that came to your house?

* sis Fiffy

4. Miss someone?

* yeah. my bro edric

5. What are you doing tomorrow?

* me? doing nothing!

7. What were you doing at 7.15 today?

* menyapu rumah.

8. Who/What made you happy today?

* my grandpa. finally he allowed me to masuk KLMU. amen

9. Who's on your mind constantly?

* amanda laus. im too excited to meet her there in KL!

10. The last text you received on your mobile, and who was it?

* from Vivi. yg berbunyi "org yg jaga library tu cuti bersalin so xdpt online" hahahaha!

11. What was your last decision?

* betaban lari. oopss! x jadii :D

12. Do you have any piercings?

* auww~ peda kdri

13. Last person to disappoint you?

* my dad. my dad & my dad

14. Who/What made you angry today?

* nothing

15. Last thing you ate?

* udang galah :D

16. Do you find yourself loved?

* yearhh. dari kamoo ku temukan 1 chenta yg indah.. :)

17. Plans for the day?

* antar kain with sis Fiffy

18. Do you have over 1,000 friendster friends?

* yahh. from 2 2 acc

19. ----> ?

* APAKAH?

20. Do you cry when you're upset?

* yeah. on da spot~

21. Did you wear clip-on/stick-on earrings as a child?

* nope~

22. What were you doing at 10 pm last night?

* watching Diari Akademi Fantasiaaa~

23. Do you like your hair colored?

* yeah. looks cool :D

24. Can you sing?

* yes i do. auw! ngeso jak bunyi!

25. Do you enjoy your personality?

*Not really

26. What are you looking forward to?

* sambung tali. no lah. sambung blaja~

27. What do you hate the most?

* when people, especially my own friends stabbbb me from the back

28. Prefer old songs, new songs or remixed?

* somanya! =D

29. Your fave chocolate?

* fereroo~

31. Who was the last person you ate with?

* my grandmaa

32. When was the last time you were truly happy?

* last night, wihuu!

33. When did you last cry so hard?

* during musim tengkujuh. no lha. last time. adalahh. sebok kan tau!

34. Why did you cry?

* sbb ku khlangan ssorg, nmanya aveniues :(

35. Who made you feel better?

* no one.

36. Do you believe exes can be 'just friends'?

* nah i dun think so.

37. What's to your right?

* house phone

38. Whats to your left?

* cellphone & PC

39. For you, which is more important: Looks or Personality?

* personality

40. What are you going to do after this?

* watching tv

41. Have you spent any time in your life in jail?

* never ever!!

42. Last time you saw one of your exes?

* time ambek result SPM. i mean HustOn

43. Your last ex is next to you, what do you do?

* kan ku ucap, aveniues! i love u! :(